Sunday, November 25, 2007

My Story

This blog is about our story - yours and mine. It is about the question we all ask at one time or another: "Who am I , and what is my purpose in life." This year has been about this question. It is the first time in my life I have really stopped long enough to ponder this. I don't have all the answers yet, but I'm glad I'm asking the question, because I am now on a journey that is exciting and a little bit scary. It is the road to becoming me - the real me - the me I was created to be!

My "shift" began around March of 2007, and was sparked by a combination of physical and emotional changes through Z health, a women's retreat, and a business cruise. I'm not sure I can explain what happened, but through these avenues, I was exposed to a new way of thinking about myself and life in general. I began to realize that I have been living my life out of fear. The fear of failing to live up to expectations, the fear that someday I would be discovered as a fraud. Through my interactions with some great people during this time period, I began to see that I was in fact valuable and worthwhile just because I am - not for what I do. During the women's retreat we talked a lot about our true identity in Christ. The fact that I am loved by an almighty God who paid the ultimate price to have relationship with me, and the fact that heaven and hell are literally at war over my life and heart is something that I knew intellectually, but never actually understood on a heart level. I am now finally beginning to understand that as a woman, I reflect the glory of God. I am worth something because the Creator of the universe thinks I'm worthy of His love. That he created me in His image means that in some way, I reflect His beauty, creativity, intellect, compassion . . . And the most exciting thing is that He invites me (us) to play a part in His story. So this is where I am now - Finally beginning to understand my worth as a woman/human, and now working to discover how to live out the role/purpose I have been designed for. I am called to a deeper reality, a more abundant life. I am called to live with joyful abandon and rest in the hands of my Creator. The question now is how!